Greater is He that lives in me than he that is in the world

Stephen and I made an agreement that we would both write out our testimonies before school starts this fall and I'm currently struggling with writing mine down.  It's not an easy thing to talk about and for some reason it's even harder to write down. It's almost like as I write, it is leaving me and is no longer a part of me and is now just a story.

I should want this, I should want these horrible things to be contained on paper instead of in my mind.  For some reason I'm holding on.  Without my past I wouldn't be where I am now; I would not have hit the bottom, I would not have been searching for an answer and maybe I would never have found the Answer.

A constant word I get from God is about forgetting my past and pressing forward toward Him.  I get it at least once a day in my quiet time.  Yet I still struggle with letting go.

Danny spoke tonight about this and really blessed and encouraged me.  I need to hold tight to my future and forget my past; when I am reminded of my weaknesses I need to lean on the gifts that my Father has given me; and when the enemy says it can't be done, I need to lean on the power of GOD!  He's so much bigger and infinitely more powerful than my enemy and everything is possible with Him. 

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Benji.  I was really blessed to spend this whole weekend with him.  I'm not gonna pretend that I knew him amazingly well or that we hung out a lot but he really blessed my life and I'm sad that he won't be here this year but at the same time I'm really excited that God has such an awesome plan for his life and I can't wait to hear about the ways that God uses him for the kingdom.